Ceremony Once More

Ceremony Once More

This song brings tears to my eyes for many reasons. Sometimes words do that when you hear them the right way. I’m very grateful and lucky to have experienced Ian Curtis and Joy Division. No matter what happens, their electricity is bound inside me forever. It feels like loneliness unbound. It’s a sadness you all can never understand, hence my tears. Some souls are just here briefly, souls filled with love crushed by the lack of it in this crumbling humanity. None of you get it. I’m all alone, either in madness or genius. But I’d rather be me with these eyes then to see what you all see. The other side is my true freedom, yours as well, if you know how to know it. These words are for none and all, as Zarathustra would say. The loneliest path is the hardest and the saddest but some of us are just on that road…. ES


This is why events unnerve me,
They find it all, a different story,
Notice whom for wheels are turning,
Turn again and turn towards this time,
All she ask’s the strength to hold me,
Then again the same old story,
Word will travel, oh so quickly,
Travel first and lean towards this time.

Oh, I’ll break them down, no mercy shown,
Heaven knows, it’s got to be this time,
Watching her, these things she said,
The times she cried,
Too frail to wake this time.

Oh, I’ll break them down, no mercy shown,
Heaven knows, it’s got to be this time,
Avenues all lined with trees,
Picture me and then you start watching,
Watching forever, forever,
Watching love grow, forever,
Letting me know, forever.


“What if a demon were to creep after you one night, in your loneliest loneliness, and say, ‘This life which you live must be lived by you once again and innumerable times more; and every pain and joy and thought and sigh must come again to you, all in the same sequence. The eternal hourglass will again and again be turned and you with it, dust of the dust!’ Would you throw yourself down and gnash your teeth and curse that demon? Or would you answer, ‘Never have I heard anything more divine’?”

Wise words from someone who was insanely wise… Nietzsche, perhaps the single most resounding comprehender and illustrator of un-ending loneliness. What do you really know about anything? Think about it. Love to all. 

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